While watching a nature program, I saw a monkey, standing hunched over, his hands hanging down, as if in a state of complete defeat. In my mind, I thought, “that’s what I feel like, I have monkey hands”. I began to pray, “Lord, lift up my monkey hands, restore my joy”.
As God led me through scriptures that spoke to the reasons I had monkey hands that hang down, I began to have insight. As I read Psalms 139, I was reminded that God is aware of every failure, every disappointment and all of my circumstances.
When I read where David asked God to search his heart, (Psalms 139: 23-24) I figured, what could there possibly be in my own life that would cause this monkey hands funk? All my defeat is coming from the outside, not the inside! Silly me.
Asking God to show you your own heart is like asking God for patience. You really don’t understand what you’ve gotten yourself into until the ‘work’ of the Spirit begins. Mercy. After God had shown me all the attitudes that need to be turned to HIS ways; He reminded me of the mercy and grace of the cross.
It is truly humbling to be reminded that no matter what I do, there is still more to be done. Equally humbling is the fresh realization that only through Jesus can I be worthy to be a companion of a perfect God. My shortcomings are many, my faults – too great to number.
Circumstances are often beyond our control. We have no control at all over other people. The only thing we DO have control over is our own attitude, our own heart. Through God’s Spirit and His Word, He shows us how to face hard times.
Rarely does God change circumstances to make ‘me’ comfortable. Most often, He changes me so that HIS presence can be more clearly seen through the trials of my life. He is Lord, He works all things out for my good; because I love Him. I CAN lift up my monkey hands and praise Him!
Hebrews 12: 12-13 Wherefore lift up the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees; And make straight paths for your feet, lest that which is lame be turned out of the way; but let it rather be healed.